Friday, January 29, 2010

Cathedral Grove.

Inspired by Keira-Anne 's post,
And Krista's recent pics from the Island,
I'll be making a trip there.

Probably not this weekend,
since I'll be working,
but hopefully next.

Should make for some excellent photo ops.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Boxed In.

I'm in a room.
It has 4 walls.
A floor.
A ceiling.

The paint is a depressing beige.
There are no pictures.
Nothing of interest to look at.
But it is very cluttered.
So cluttered in fact I cant move.

My life,
my entire 24 years of being,
has been packed away into boxes.

It's odd how I feel like the rope around my neck has tightened ever so slightly more.
Right before I find freedom, no less.

What's even stranger is how calm I find myself.
I feel like I should be more tense and on edge.
More worried about the unexpected.
After all it's what I've always done.
When faced with a situation full of unknowns,
I pull back and remove myself from any possible disasters.

And now?
Now I stand on the edge of a proverbial abyss.
Not knowing how the future will play out.
Will I fail?
Can I do what I have to to survive?
Will I crack under the pressure?
Or will I succeed?
Can I push beyond the limitations I've stalled at previously?
Will I find a sense of responsibility, maturity?

I don't know.
But the abyss before me doesn't scare me.
For once, its comforting.

23 days.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Scientific Proof.

A mathematic formula that proves what we always suspected:

Can't live with 'em.

Can't live without 'em.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Beat Her Tonight.

That was the subject title of an email in my junk...

I'm pretty choked right now.
Where the hell is winter?

Where is the cold,
and snow,
and ice,
and, and, and....


This is depressing.
15 degrees?
What the fuck is that?
I've been walking around in t-shirts all day.

I cry shenanigans.

28 giorni.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Bring It.

So the countdown has begun.

And I find myself in an advantageous situation.

We all know I'm lazy.

We all know I procrastinate.

If something can be done tomorrow,

it no doubt will be.

But when push comes to shove,

and it has to be NOW,

I come through in the clutch.

I was told I had one month 2 days ago.

2 days and $400 later,

I've proven I can take charge before tomorrow.

Dario has his game face on.

Do you?

30 days.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Barren Walls.

My room as I know it is gone.
The walls are an endless prairie plain of emptiness.

For a short time longer I can call it my room.
In a matter of weeks it will cease to be mine.

This one small space,
which since the day I was born has been my fortress,
reduced to another empty room in my parents house.

It already feels less like home.

Part of me is terrified for the journey about to begin.
But a bigger part is ecstatic.

These bare walls are my sign.
Its time to move on.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Too Little, Too Late.

Where was this when I needed it?